Sunday, May 9, 2010

Heavenly

This is what I came down to this morning (this and a new laptop so I can blog more hopefully!)!

I know today is painful for many who stop by my blog, so please know I understand if you are unable to view this...

I wanted to share with you though where God has brought me. There were two distinct moments in my life that I truly believe shaped me into who I am. One was a relationship that I was in and ended very badly, I remember right before it I knew it was not in a Godly place, I fell before the Father with my arms stretched out, "if this is not what YOU want I don't want it, as painful as it is I know you will bring a greater joy!!" This was said through tears and heart ache, not long after that moment God brought my Kevin into my life and my world has never been the same. I can't express to you the love I have for my husband, it is greater and deeper then anything I could ever imagine...

The second was after my second loss and third year of waiting, I fell before the Lord once again only this time I was so fearful of the prayer I was going to pray...."I know Lord if I let it Go, if I offer it to you and you say no I am going to believe that once again you have a greater joy...." I lived my next year in a state of complete surrender, that if it was not meant to be there was something greater God had for me...not long after that moment God brought Jaden, and the NEXT day I found out about Tyler!

I don't write this as the answer, but I do write this as an encouragement! God will always come with a greater joy, and the sun always shines brighter after a storm!

10 comments:

The Swann's said...

Happy Mother's Day hun! Such a special video, thank you for sharing with us!!! My heart fills with joy for you and your beautiful family!

Andrea said...

Much Love today Beth...and thank you for walking beside me and encouraging my way :) May my footsteps follow closely behind yours and may I come to know your strength, as I admire your contstant FAITH.

xoxo

Libby said...

All I can say girl is you have an amazing hubby!!!

And you are the best mommy in the world....well 2nd only to me :)
Love ya!!

Mandy said...

The video brought tears to my eyes! I just love seeing God's love written all over your story. Happy Mother's Day to you on this very special day!

Deni said...

That video made me cry! The boys are precious and your husband is the best to do something so sweet and thoughtful for you! My second's due date was Tyler's birthday, I'm happy to know there was celebration and new birth on that day for someone so deserving.

The Wrights said...

ok..i too am wiping my eyes. SO delighted for you to celebrate this mother's day with these precious gifts.

Jenny said...

OMG....you have such a sweet husband! Happy Mother's Day to one of the best mothers I know! I love you!

Stacey said...

LOVE the video! We're so happy to know you and Kevin and hope to be able to meet your precious boys someday. Thanks for continuing to share your journey and how far you've come -- by God's grace. Love you!

Unknown said...

Oh Beth - how sweet! Thank you for sharing. Two precious miracles - One amazing God!

Hartmanduo:) said...

Beth..I just finished watching that precious video and with tears coursing down my face I am praising God with your for the journey He has been so faithful to bring you through! Thank you for sharing it..I cannot wait to see all He has planned for your sweet family of four. Love you, Aubry:)