Monday, April 27, 2009

Surrendering to a Godly Perspective

I have been thinking a lot about what to write lately. I honestly don't have words to describe the blessings Kevin and I have been experiencing. I was speaking with a friend this morning about how it is not like anything has changed in my life from the human perspective, I am still at this moment childless, I still have two losses, I am still not pregnant (at least not that I know of...), so what has changed to make me see and feel things so differently?

I really believe that Kevin and I are daily taking on the Godly perspective. We are seeing that our joy, as much as we would like to think it will be fulfilled by child, will never be truly filled by a child. We are coming to a point in our lives of true surrender, and not a surrendering in hopes to have a baby but a total surrender to live our lives according to God's purpose! We are being so fulfilled by laying down our lives for those around us, for letting go of our finances not for a child but for Gods purpose of blessing those around us. We are finally realizing that the more we let go the more we are blessed, we are beyond blessed and filled with joy because we are in complete surrender to God, and this is bringing the joy that fulfills like nothing we have ever experienced.

Kevin and I have had our trials, and I am sure there are more trials to come, but my perspective is not on the trial, but on who God is, who He has called me to be and knowing He will bless us and keep us beyond what we could ever imagine or ask for.

So be truly glad.[a] There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. 7 These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.
8 You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him now, you trust him; and you rejoice with a glorious, inexpressible joy. 1 Peter 1:5-8

We are being called purified gold, we know the testing will come again and we are ready, because we know the joy will follow! The trials, my friends are only for a little while.”

Monday, April 20, 2009

Kevin is Amazing

Here is a slide show of the most recent project, don't worry there is no music so just enjoy the pics!

Monday, April 13, 2009

I Can't Blossoming into I CAN

I can't believe… that it has been 10 months since losing Judah

I can't believe… that I was pregnant this time last year

I can't believe… where I have been

I can't believe… where I have come from

I can't believe… where I am standing now

I can't believe… all that God has done, will do, and is doing

I can't believe… the blessings through the suffering

I can't believe… God's abundant everlasting Love towards me

I can't believe… all that has happened and all I have been through

I CAN believe… in God who HE is, what HE does and what HE will do-

I can't believe… how much I am moving forward into what I Can believe

I Had to Go through the can't to get to the other side of the I CAN Believe!

Monday, April 6, 2009

Moments Framed

Has been updated, please let me know what you think!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Oh My What a Great Suprise

Kevin called me when he got home from work today
There is a big dent in our Mazda is what he had to say.

What are you sure? It just can't be I explain
I did not and would not go out in this yucky rain!

Come down quick and see for yourself,
I promise it is there and nothing else

So as quick as I could I slid on my shoes
and dashed for the stairs to see if it was true...

As I came down the stairs I could not believe my eyes
For there stood my Kevin with a great big surprise!

A brand new Cannon camera just for me
to capture all those moments I always See!!!
Thanks babe!!!!

First picture taken!!!

Claim it by Name

I am constantly amazed by the love I feel through this blog. I am constantly amazed at how God has used this blog to bring such amazing and wonderful people into my life. I never knew how God would bless me through this, I never knew that first day of writing on this blog about the journey God was having Kevin and I walk would turn into such an incredible blessing.

It truly is amazing that what Satan means for evil God turns around and uses for Good, to bring glory to His name and to bless His children in ways I could never expect or imagine.

One of things God is teaching me daily is to be very specific with my prayers, saying it aloud speaking it with confidence. Which is why Kevin and I decided to share the names of our children on the blog, we believe with all our hearts that in Gods timing these will be our children.

I had to giggle at all who are also going to name their children with similar names, please know this does nothing but excite me. I would love if every one of you girls who are struggling with infertility start calling out your children’s names. You do not have do this publically (although I would love to be able to pray for your children by name) but in your personal prayers start praying for your children by name! God already calls them by name, why should we not do the same!

Thank you will never say enough for what you girls have done for me during this journey! I am excited to see all God is going to do in our lives; I have an expectant heart for all of you!

Don’t worry Kevin won’t really track you down, he and I will be claiming them with you!