I bounce between praying through difficult situations dear friends are facing to how I am going to thin down what is in my storage room so that I can move into a home with zero space...do I take the crib I know I don't need anytime soon? Do I donate the keepsakes I have held onto for 14 years? Do I really need that random box of cords (my husband will say yes.)? It's all so much.
Two weeks ago we signed a contract on a house that is 10 miles from our current home. If you follow me on FB or YouTube then you have already seen my updates. The reality of going from a 3.400 square foot home to a 2,200 home. Which is everything my heart desires. I truly believe we are "going home" for the first time in our marriage. I have never felt anything quite like it. It is a dream come true for both us. Land. Boys. Land and boys. they just go together and we so desperately want to change our lifestyle.
Kevin and I have dreamed of land since we said "I do.." it was always something we talked about, and then when we had 4 boys it became even more a dream. However, what really stirred this fast pace move that has literally taken our breath away was wanting to buy a travel trailer to start some new adventures with our boys.
We are part of a camp loving community and we have fallen in love with it. We show up at a campsite and set our tamed boys free into the wild and watch them come alive. We knew we wanted this as part of our lives. We had new dreams of traveling the US with them and creating deep memories and bonds as a family. We have seen some of our closest friends do it and seen how much it has benefitted and changed their lives...we wanted in. So on the hunt we went for a used,sleeps 6, trailer... and we soon realized that financially we just could not afford to take our saving to pay for it. Kevin is not a huge fan of financing things we don't absolutely have to. So we paused.
Then one night at dinner I said to my Calm "Babe, I have this thought, and its going to sound totally and completely crazy..." There was no shock on his face, because I don't do many things or say many things that shock him...."What if we sell everything we have, buy land...and put a trailer on it and slowly build our dream?" I can't honestly remember what his reaction was, I do know it was NOT shock...it was agreement, peace....dreams.
So we started looking, we went and saw properties...we started researching, we started asking questions and finding out whether or not we could actually do this....and reality? We couldn't. To build in Fayette county is so difficult and the more researched the more we realized there was no way we could actually afford to build.
So we paused.
And then Kevin sent me a property....in Brooks. See, we had visited a house in brooks about a year ago, but that house was really really far out and I didn't love the lay of the land, they had cut all the trees down...So that was my impression of Brooks...Far away, bare land.
I want woods, shade, trees...
I'll never forget loading all the kids in the van and telling them we were going to visit another plot of land...all the question...bless it. As we pulled into the driveway something happened in my heart...and when I rounded the corner and saw my husband walking the property I knew he loved it. Oh we all fell in love. The house, the pool, the trees...all of it. It was all so much we have always wanted. We left dazed and amazed and totally overwhelmed because I think we both knew we couldn't let it go.
It meant a lot of things, we were going to have to go through a lot of changes. We knew that it would be a trade off and not an easy one. We have some of the dearest of dearest friends 4.5 miles from us. We trade kids like trading cards...
We have the best babysitter in the history of babysitters...she is a dream, and I couldn't imagine taking the house if she couldn't come with it. (HA..)
We have some of the sweetest neighbors who have my boys over to play weekly...
It was a lifestyle change and we know it isn't going to be an easy one...
However, for the first time in 14 years Kevin and I feel permission to put down roots. To say yes to GA, to raising our kids with a community we have come to love and couldn't imagine living without... To building a home for the boys to come back to over the years...we are saying YES to more things then we had to say CHANGE to.
So in two weeks we will be sleeping in our new (hopefully) forever home. My heart can't even take all of the thankfulness this will mean. We are overwhelmed everys single step we take we feel the peace of Jesus all over it.
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